Pregnancy after miscarriages. Testing daily to try and convince myself that it's real.

Right now I am aware the test says positive, I am pregnant. But I am numb to the idea that anything will result from it. I have no interest currently in planning a future for the baby and my brain is forbidding my emotions from getting any form of excitement. And worst of all I have ptsd from the previous losses. I dont want to go to the obgyn. I dont want any bad news or to get emotionally attached. 5 weeks

Where all my gals at who have felt this way 🖐✋👐