Wanting babe

Hi guys ,

I’m a single mum 4 years ago and meet my partner now , whom i want to living together to the end of my life . I’m 25 and he older than me 11 years 36.

We have birth control at beginning of our relo. Just 1 year close by I stop talking pill because my hormones was changing and gave me so many side effects.

For some point i start thinking to having a babe as well . Beside that I’m worry ,can my partner sperm be “ expire” soon . As what i hope for him to say yes . And he said “ NO” to me to not having any babe for this moment...

Idk why , i feel bad . I felt he might not loving me anymore???? Thats why he dont want to commit with me ???

I’m stuck ... i need some advice pls .