Is This Normal? (Long Rant 😔 Sorry)

Laina

I’m 16 weeks pregnant and I am an emotional wreck. I feel so guilty, anxious and absolutely terrified about being pregnant. I feel so guilty because my husband and I are falling out every week! We dont barely speak to each other, we sleep in separate rooms now and cant even coexist in a car ride. he is tired of me and I am tired of him. Im not sure if it the hormones or what but I dont want to bring my child into a what seems like Loveless home. I dont want to just co-exist in a relationship for a child. I’m anxious because I want to be able to protect my child and advocate for my child and provide the best life for my child. I love my baby so much already. Im scared to lose it during pregnancy or after birth. I have a horrible relationship with my mom because she chose drugs over her children and I am terrified that maybe its genetic or something happens and I will lose my love or want for my child and abandon it. I know its sounds irrational but this is what I am feeling and I cant stop crying when i think of it and I think of it all the time. Its like the further along I am the worse it gets. Is it normal or appropriate to feel this way or do I need to seek help or something.

Please be honest.