My son was born at 33 weeks on Monday. He’s in the nicu. I’m a mom to two other kids so I can’t just be at the nicu all day and night like I want and was with my daughter when she was in the nicu. Today was the hardest, I had to take my daughter in for a check up, and the doctors office had so many babies come in an out. I literally had to run out so I didn’t break down from see everybody with their baby. I just want my baby. I haven’t got to hold him since birth because he’s on a ventilator right now. My heart is breaking. My husband has tomorrow off so I get to drive and spend the day with him tomorrow, but it doesn’t feel right leaving without him. I’m trying to stay strong but this hurts. My daughter is 2 so she can’t come to the nicu or I would be there everyday. It’s hard to send her to a babysitter all the time. Anyways, sorry I just kinda need to let my feels out. It’s been a rough time.