Why is it that no one ever really talks about what happens once baby is here? About the postpartum hair loss, the bleeding for weeks, engorged breasts, crying for no reason, checking to see if baby is breathing, depression, anger, etc etc! I posted a while back about being angry with the in-laws that they had their own nursery set up in their house, kept buying things for baby to have at their house, bought new car, wanted to kiss baby, etc etc.. and i got so much hate saying I’m ungrateful and that it’s normal for grandparents to do that and that I’m not normal... I kept thinking “what’s wrong with me? Why do I feel like this? I guess it’s just a me problem since NO ONE feels like me..” turns out majority of people get postpartum depression and anxiety. I got extreme anxiety and extreme anger! I started seeing someone to help with postpartum and she said postpartum feelings are basically magnified feelings I already had before birth... So me not being a big fan of my in-laws got intensified by a million! I absolutely hate that not many people talk about postpartum.. I felt alone and like something was wrong with me. I would think about suicide because I wanted to just stop feeling like that, but then I would feel like shit for thinking that because I absolutely love my daughter and never want to leave her! I’m working on myself and journaling every day and seeing someone to help with postpartum... I’m hoping that I can be myself again and stop being so angry and start enjoying life again with our daughter! And maybe also post about my postpartum experience.