Very scared and anxious

I just need to vent. PLEASE DONT JUDGE. I have never been tested for stds. I was stupid in college and slept around too. I’m married now and I’ve been with my husband for 4 years but I’m scared as shit to get tested for stds because idk what to do if it comes back positive. Like I’m scared that it will have made me infertile. I’m scared my husband will think I’m cheating on him. I’m just really honestly very scared and just keep putting it off. I have so much anxiety about it though. I have never had any symptoms of an std and neither has my husband. I just fucking hate myself for being so fucking dumb as a kid and fucking up my life :(