Just sad..

EDIT: thank all of you for responding! We have both been married before and are 33 and 42. We are not just “dating”. We built a place together last year, and have been living together for 4 years. Wonderful years. I love this man very much. He proposed to me on my birthday, and we had a wedding date planned twice already but something always comes up financially, which is BS. We both make good money and love each other, and aren’t jumping into marriage by any means. Yes, we have talked about it, and he always says we will get married, but it’s not fair to make me “wait” when he proposed, without any persuasion. We talked very early on in our relationships about our wants and needs and marriage is, or was very important. He’s a wonderful man, but I believe in marriage. I don’t know anymore..😥 I know this is ridiculous, and I’m posting to vent, mainly. My fiancé and I have been together for 5 years and engaged for 2. We have 3 weddings coming up the first half of this year. February, March and 1 in May. I am very happy for these people, but I can’t help but be a little hurt because neither of these couples has been together longer than we’ve even been engaged. Yes, I know that’s none of my concern. Yes, I know it has nothing to do with my relationship. However, the wedding in May I just found out about today, and it kinda made me have an epiphany. I shouldn’t allow outside relationships to affect mine personally, but I have today because I’m seriously thinking about calling our engagement off. I have left some factors out to maintain a little anonymity, so it’s really not solely based on what I’ve shared. We have had a great relationship overall, but I didn’t sign up for being strung along for another 5 years. I’m venting so if you’re going to respond in a condescending or verbally abusive way, please, I’m begging you not to. Some advice I will greatly take with me but don’t be a vile person. We all go through difficult times and sometimes even a kind word from a stranger can mean everything to someone. 🥺