Guys, I've been so depressed because I got fired from my job the week before Christmas 😭 It wouldn't be that much of a deal because taxes are coming up but my husband hasn't worked longer than 6-7 months in the ten years we've been together. Every time I get a past due notice, I break a little more inside. I've put in at least 10 applications in the past week alone. 😫

On top of not helping financially, he barely does anything for our kids, doesn't do anything to help me keep the house clean and sleeps half the day away so he can make YouTube videos at night. I'm really close to my breaking point. I've talked to him about this at least once every 4/5 months. Every time it's "oh I'll do better, don't let me get out of it anymore ECT" I'm tired of it. I'm not his mother. I shouldn't have to remind him to help with his own kids and his own house. I'm so embarrassed and refuse to have anyone over anymore because we have clean laundry piled up in the living room, dirty laundry piled up in our bedroom. My kitchen is disgusting because I can't get anyone to help me keep it clean. I've had to have MY DAD come take our trash out for the last three months because I can't go down our steps holding anything for fear of messing my leg up irreparably. 😣(Broke it and required knee surgery but can't bend my leg much anymore)

I just don't know what to do anymore. I love him, but I already feel like a single parent. I have most of our kids' lives in fact. I don't want to divorce him. When I said for the rest of my life, I meant it. But I don't know how much more I can take of this. I wanted another baby very badly, but I meant an actual baby, not a 31 year old man baby 😑🙄😣