What do you do when...

My baby is in the NICU theres a 50% chance he will make and 50% chance he won't... if he does theres a possibilty he won't be able to talk & look very different due to lymphatic mouthformation.... I love my baby alot to me he has no flaws regardless but... society I never want my kid to feel less or left and he is the same as everyone else I'm in so much pain idk what to do or think... but if he doesn't make it my heart will be so empty I'm so broken right now today hes one month instead of having him with me hes in the hospital....

To parents out there who had to go threw this how did you cope with it ?