Help! (kinda long)

eMJay

Hey <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> fam, so I've been in a relationship with this guy for around two months now, and recently I've been feeling really down about this connection. I struggle with anxiety and depression, and I have been working really hard to use healthy habits in our relationship. Communication, however, is something I really struggle with because I always feel like I'm being needy or bothersome. I've been able to communicate about some things, and he's been improving a little, but I still have this overwhelming feeling that he doesn't really care about me. I'm trying to be realistic and look for evidence about that, but recently my friends have also started noticing his uncaring behavior. He's notorious for making insensitive jokes and just being a generally nonchalant person, but I feel like I've tried to let him know that I feel like I like him more and it's very scary. What's been pushing me over the edge is when he recently fake broke up with me... as a joke... which I communicated that I didn't find funny and he apologized. And then he brought up how well his ex sucked him off... which I also communicated about and he didn't really have a very sensitive reaction. I do think he cares about me and is just an avoident person (like me). He's also been very hurt in the past (like me). But I cry every night because the pain of feeling like someone you love doesn't care about you like you do them is so intense. I know it's too painful to go on like this, but does anyone have a less direct way of saying "If I continue to feel uncared for in the relationship, I'm going to leave you". I feel like threatening a break up would make him want to blow up the bridge first. Thanks in advance :)