Sorry for the long post needed to vent and here felt right

Just asking for prayers my now 6 week old boy had his second cardiologist appointment yesterday and we got told that it’s getting worse but he can’t have the catheter put in until 6 months old unless it gets to the point where they feel he needs it sooner. When he was in the hospital they took him to get circumcised an hour later his nursery pediatrician came back and told me (I was by myself at this point husband went home to feed the cats) that they found a heart murmur so they called to get him an echo done. Another half hour goes by and she came back (sweetest pediatrician ever) and tried to explain what was going on. While she was explaining it the doctor came in with my baby boy and a couple of papers explaining that he has Pulmonary valve stenosis it might go away but it might not. At one week we went into the doctors office to get another echo and it slightly elevated. As a FTM I kind of freaked out feeling like I had done something wrong on top of getting a DSS referral because of my husband. But I’m doing everything I need to be every other week a lady from parenting comes to the house to talk about how I’m doing and sends it to my safy agent and within 6-7 months everything should go away. Other than that I’m just worried about my little boy even though I know there’s nothing I can do to help other than snuggle him and love him extra hard. I know god has a plan for everything and he gives his toughest battles to the strongest people but I didn’t think I could handle it. I’m glad to say I’m doing a little better though. Thank you to anyone who reads this and prays for my little boy. This community really has helped me a lot.