I have no one but my boyfriend and yet I still feel alone but only when we argue and he distance himself.. he has a big family who are close but we see them like twice a month.. my family I never see. They don’t call me or visit me or even make plans with me.. I don’t get invited over to their house or anything.. I’m so depressed and sad and my boyfriend wants me to make friends with girls but I don’t like people. I don’t trust people.. sometimes I just wana be gone but I’m so scared to leave this world because idk what’s next after this.. I’m not happy with myself and it’s hard to want to do anything for myself.. I don’t love myself at all.. idk how..