I found out I was pregnant on December 15. I went in for my first ultra sound last Thursday and they only saw a gestational sac that was measuring at 5 weeks which I was supposed to be 7 weeks no fetal pole or yolk sac. I got hcg levels taken and it wasn’t doubling but still going up a little. The doctors office I was going to never called me with any of my lab values I had to find them for myself on quest.

I decided to switch my practice and I was seen Tuesday and same thing 5 weeks gestational sac doctor said it was located in the corner of my uterus just shy of the fallopian tube and I’d most likely need surgery or methotrexate. The next day Wednesday I got really bad cramping and went to the bathroom and I went to go wipe and there was a sac looking thing followed by lots of clots and bleeding. So I called the doctor and they saw me that day and did another scan and it was the gestational sac that I passed. I was feeling grateful that it happened this way instead of needing surgery or methotrexate but now the feeling of loss has set in. I was so happy to be a Mom for the first time and now I can’t shake the feeling of failure. How did you ladies cope with these feelings? I never thought this would happen to me. 😢