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I always beat myself up about things.. so, within the past 3 weeks I’ve tested a lot and I’ve actually posted on here before. And had faint lines, and than I used a digital and it said positive.. it isn’t a false positive right it’s real?! I have an appointment set for. 2/5 but I’m just i don’t know. Need someone to tell me not to worry. My husband and I agreed not to tell no one until the appointment. And I just need reassurance. We have 2 children. But, we have been trying for about a year now. And don’t wanna doubt it is all. It feels like I’m dreaming!