Difficult Transition

Long post:

I never thought I’d be venting here lol.

We moved here to Houston from Chicago over 5 months ago and baby, it’s been rough. Originally we were relocating to Dallas where my husband had a good job offer instead he took a job offer in Houston with a big pay cut simply because he liked Houston more. I was totally onboard because I had few family members here.

I was so excited to get out of Chicago to chase our dreams and give our kids more but I’m questioning everything these days. I have a 2 year old son who is still adjusting and we try our best to take him outside to play around and keep him exploring. Every weekend is about making sure he is happy and comfortable but lately I’m starting to worry about his speech and my husband is more chill and laid back about it. He is smart, good at putting puzzles together, use the potty, knows his colors, knows how old he is etc. Some days he would blurt things out and I wouldn’t hear it for weeks or month even. He isn’t spending plenty of time among other kids since we moved. So I’ve been taking him to story-time with the hope that we will bond with some new friends there but it hasn’t been easy. Haha some people isn’t as friendly.

I’m currently expecting another baby mid February and just trying to figure out how to make things run a little smoother around here. So I decided to enroll in school full time from home so I can watch my son avoiding daycare cost. I had so many transferable credits for pre nursing already but decided to go another route because of clinicals and my husband unpredictable work schedule. I hope I can complete this processing technician program to give my man some chill time.

My husband works so hard, he smiles everyday but I know the pressure he is under even though he tries not to show it and would never let us fall so low. All our plans fell apart since we got here. The person who we were suppose to live with for few months switched up real quick so we immediately moved out. Our plans on purchasing a house and land had to get pushed back, and daycare is simply out our budget right now since we end up paying almost $1350 a month on rent.

Praying that once our baby arrive I can juggle them and get my assignments done on time since I have no help here. Not to mention I don’t qualify for any assistance, ugh! I just want to scream! I feel like we took a big L and step backwards , I thought I planned everything out to a ‘T’. I’m grateful that my sister plan on visiting me the first week in Feb and my mom offered to come help me out with the new grand baby for 6weeks. One thing is for sure, we are not having anymore children anytime soon.

I miss working, I miss the extra monies. I miss making things easier. I miss our friends and family. I miss our comfortable way of living before moving here.

How do you mommas make it look so easy with multiple young children?

Any tips on encouraging my son to be more verbal? We read a lot, paint and tell stories since he was a newborn. I honestly believe he can talk alot but choose not to.