Natural birth vs. Epidural

Ladies please tell me about your experiences! I’m so nervous even though this is my second baby. I had an epidural with my first baby. One month in I got pregnant again ! 😫 this time with an anxious to come baby girl who has been nothing but a paaaaain to be pregnant with. My son got stuck under my pelvic bone (shoulder dystocia) and also was meconium inside my stomach. Came out limp and was not very pretty he almost didn’t make it 😢😢 today he’s a healthy 10 month old little rugrat. And I’m so ready to have his sister. No one tells you that having an epidural makes it really hard to focus on pushing because you’re so numb you feel as if you’re not even pushing AANNNNDDD on top of that the process gets slowed down with an epidural! 🤦🏻‍♀️ my docs are telling me it may have to be a c section and I’m so so nervous for a c section I want all my kids to be vaginal deliveries. Is natural birth easier than epidural birth ??