Missed miscarriage, heart broken..want to vent

I had a blighted ovum and miscarried last weekend naturally at 9 weeks. This was my first pregnancy and got it after trying for almost 4 years . Now I am feeling much depressed. I am crying daily night. I am not able to sleep. I miss my baby. Once I thought getting two lines in HPT is everything but now I am scared. I want to be strong. I have a supportive family, but the moment I am alone the thoughts of baby pop in.. I love my baby.