I met my boyfriend last year when he came to the states on a work visa. When we originally started dating we knew that in around 9 months he would have to go back to his home country. We decided to wait and see how our relationship progressed to understand if we’d want to try and continue things. Long story short, we fell very much in love and wanted to stay together. I ended up packing up my entire life and moving to his home country.

It was my first time ever living with a boyfriend and also just my first time moving in general. We bonded a lot. We spent three months together and everything was going well besides an occasional stupid fight here and there. However, an issue occurred with my visa and I had to go back home for a month and half.

My family life back in the states is very... rough. My moms a struggling alcoholic and living with her again brought back a deep depression. Especially after spending a lot of time with his family and being treated like a daughter by them. I left right before Christmas (something my family is too dysfunctional to celebrate) so the holidays ended up being more hard then expected.

I also was away on my birthday and our first anniversary, so naturally I was pretty bummed.Anyways, this all has a point to it.

Now, we’re obviously doing a bit of long distance and I’ve becoming to hate who I’m becoming as a partner. I get jealous when he spends more time with his friends and doesn’t call or text me. He says he is lonely and trying to keep his mind busy with me gone, but meanwhile I’m home and depressed since I sold my car to move and am basically stuck inside the house a lot. I’ve gotten so used to being with him and talking to him and now we maybe talk for an hour every other day. It’s not his fault, the time difference is a big bitch. But I’m becoming so upset when he doesn’t follow through when he says he’ll call. I start to get irrational and my mind gets all crazy and tell me he doesn’t love me enough. If I was him, I wouldn’t want to stay with me because I went from being a really relaxed girlfriend to a girlfriend who picks fights for stupid little things. I just get upset because he spends all this time with his best friend ( who he sees all the time) and he’ll forget that he said he’d call or he’ll just not text me. He knows the position I’m in too. He knows it’s very hard for me to live with my mom again. I just thought he’d be more active on talking to me. Especially since In the past when we were apart (2-3 weeks) he’d always message me. I don’t think he’s cheating, I know he isn’t. He’s a really dedicated boyfriend and I think I need to just let this go. We talked about and he feels really bad but it keeps happening. I’m trying to stick it out because it will be over in 2 weeks but my mind just can’t let it go. Any advice ?