Long long post I’m sorry :/ I’m currently 15 weeks due July 15th we tried for this baby for 2 years before getting pregnant but since the moment I concived I have had horrible feelings I’ve talked with my doctor and am on meds but I DO NOT feel connected to this baby! I more so resent it and that breaks my heart I’ve been so sick I haven’t gained any weight which is fine I’m over weight so docs are not worried but I can’t control my freaking emotions anymore nothing I cry constantly I hate my baby for making me pee my pants while I’m throwing up everything ive eaten I am so overwhelmed nothing about this pregnancy feels natural or normal and just admitting this makes me cry for how horrible feeling a mother I am but just saying it I know I’m not alone I wish beyond everything not another woman would have to feel this depressed while blessing the world with a baby I just wish I knew what would help me I feel horrible for feeling this way