So my son is turning one on Monday and the last few weeks I’ve been really sad. Like i know growing is part of life but like I’m having a tough time that my sweet 7 pound tiny baby is already 1. I feel like he barely needs me anymore. He’s become so independent(started walking at 10 months) and recently other than nap time or bed time. He wants nothing to do with me. I’ve also been going through a lot with trying to find another job for the last 6 months. I’ve been offered a few jobs and then when it comes to money it’s not worth the $500+ a month to send him to daycare. I Just feel stuck. My husband is an amazing father and life partner and helps me out in anyway and is pretty supportive, I just feel like lately I can’t figure out if I’m not doing enough with my life, as a mother, or as wife. And other days I feel like I did so much and am exhausted. Trying to work a full time job, trying to be a full time mom and wife is getting at me pretty bad. I have to work because of bills. I work three 12 hour days and one 4 hour shift. Majority of my hours are on the weekends. I feel like I’m torn and just don’t know what to do. A lot has been on my mind lately. And i just can’t get past it.