And I’m late on my cycle I can’t get excited because everytime I get excited I end up disappointed so no I won’t get Excited about the fact that see a faint line I won’t get excited about the possibility of life growing inside of me. I prayed for 9 years for this I prayed long and hard and it’s everything I ever wanted but we’ve had too many losses so I’m not allowed to and I’m not allowing myself to get excited just to be crushed again. I’m all alone while my husband sleeps and I feel like any day now the other show is gonna drop and I’m gonna be let down again. Am I wrong to feel like this because I don’t know what else to do.