I’ve always wanted to wear cute clothes but I’ve always been self conscious of my size. I’ve gained a lot of weight I used to be a size 14 and am now a size 20. Yeah, I’ve gained a lot of weight but even when I was a size 14 I was really self conscious. I have this friend of mine she is beautiful and is also plus sized and she dresses how I wish I could. She wears shirts inside her pants which is something I’ve always wanted to do but have always felt too shy to do because of my rolls. I decided to do it today put put a flannel on top to cover it a bit. I asked my mom and dad if it was noticeable because I know they will tell me the flat out truth. They told me I didn’t look bad. Fast forward we’re at the mall and I feel really self conscious and ask my mom if I look fine and she says yes. I then tell her that I wish I could dress like my friend and that it really bums me out. She told me it must not really because I don’t make an effort to lose weight, and I know she’s right. She also said that we’re basically the same size. I just wish she could have said you can wear it too. You don’t look bad. But I know what she said is also true. I’ve let myself go. But it still hurt a little.