I’ve had issues with swallowing since early adulthood due to an ex’s WEIRD OBSESSION with it. Completely ruined it for me. I never could swallow for anyone. He had a diet of meat & cheese & bread only. And from fast food places. Mainly McDonald’s. He claimed eating vegetables and fruit was “feminine and gay”. I would refuse to swallow while giving him oral. Every time he finished he’d try to shove my head down and what little did get in my mouth, tasted like hot radioactive glue.

This eventually led to him cheating with an UNDERAGE girl who did it the first night they were together. I think that solidified the trauma associated with it in and of itself. He made sure I knew what she “did for him” the first night she met him, how far she drove to meet him to do it, and whatever other disgusting detail his weird ass wanted me to know.

Everyone else I dated had a horrible or kinda okay diet, but weren’t obsessed with it, especially since I got them to climax anyways. All of them said they didn’t care -where- it went as long as I got them there, and I did.

My ex before my husband didn’t want me giving him oral at all because he didn’t want me to feel pressured, which was one of the FEW nice things he did for me. I actually wanted to but he said he has two rules for women he respects. He won’t have sex with me while drunk unless he was, and if something sexual has a history of trauma he won’t do it at all. I probably would have swallowed at one point with him because he was the first guy with a decently varied diet & despite him being abusive in other ways later on— we had this really intense but respectful sex life with each other.

Tonight I woke my husband up a little bit before his alarms and asked if he wanted me to suck him off. We’ve been stressed & having routine sex and it’s amazing, but it just feels scheduled. It doesn’t feel free.

He woke up a little bit more & rolled over toward me and smiled so I went down and started.

I’d have to take breaks because he’s large but I’d still keep pleasing him with my hand or tongue, or Both. Sometimes I’d randomly kiss it, do a little dirty talk, then go back into it hardcore. I gave attention to his balls with my tongue which I’ve done for NOBODY before 😂. Precum kept coming out more & more. I could tell he was close. The more it came out he more determined I was. It honestly tasted good and turned me on so much.

He finally came and I let him cum in my mouth. The first bit shot in my mouth so hard it cut off me being able to breathe somehow. Air stopped flowing.

I took his dick out of my mouth real quick and im guessing his cum made this hilarious noise coming down and we both laugh.

I go back to sucking his dick, I start laughing on his dick over what just happened while he’s still cumming 💀 we both laugh together.

His body spasms start to slow a little bit so I go slower. I’m still stroking/licking his dick but helping him come down.

He gets up to wipe off & I tease him more by continuing to lick his dick clean while he wipes around it.

He kisses me & starts softly kissing my neck & he starts to lean into me and takes his hand to push my legs apart for my turn.

I just turned 32 & I’ve never fully swallowed before. I’m so glad my husband was the one that I was able to share this with. He’s vegan & drinks a lot of water so it wasn’t disgusting, I actually loved every bit of it 😋. Well, aside from the moment of panic of not knowing what to do when my airways were blocked off 💀.

I also loved how happy my husband was afterwards, right before going to work.

Here’s to finally getting over trauma 🎉