urgent help

i have always struggled with my weight. through insecurity and emotionally. i am an emotional eater and i have always been made to feel like shit for it. i’d cry , i’d get shit on. i’d say how i feel, id get shit on. so food has always been my go to. my immediate family has always had something smart to say. i developed an eating disorder. bc i am an emotional eater i binge. i eat until i can’t anymore which is a lot bc i have a bottomless pit.. then i purge it bc of humor and feeling like garbage. i want it to stop.. i feel my body doing weird things. i want to lose 30 pounds. i’m a avid snacker, and i eat late. i dont meal plan bc it’s hard to with my schedule. anyone have any tips? i basically wanna tone too. my problem areas are my stomach, arms and inner thighs