I feel even when I really try my hardest I feel that unless I am perfect at something then I am nothing because of it.

My haircuts be perfect and my clothes and my food. Being disabled I havent had the energy to keep the house proper clean with all that and working full time. Too tired to exercise to stop being overweight too, my doctor isn't worried but obviously I'm not the most appealing rn.

I really feel downtrodden and disappointed that I've failed husband and myself in this. I shouldn't have to ask for help, I should be able to treat my husband like a king and look amazing and make money at the same time.