Anyone else?? 😂

So I am posting this out of curiousity and was wondering if anyone else gets this!

So when me and my bf started sleeping together ( 3 years ago ) I thought it was going to be a one time thing, so when he made a lot of effort during sex and I didnt orgasm I faked it loool. Little did I know that we were gonna start dating long term. So here is the thing, this man honestly does so so much every single time we have sex like bless him even 3 years down the line he always always goes down on me before and after sex and rubs my clit simultaneously when having sex hes amazing. Thing is just sometimes I dont orgasm which is obvs completely fine but I’ve been conditioned to fake it at times as hes sooo insecure and has a very sensitive ego, like he thinks hes a failure if I dont orgasm😭😭 so I’d rather reward him for his efforts😂 if he knew it would break his heart but I always think whatever its just sometimes he makes me orgasm enough😂😂😂 Truthfully has anyone had this or am I the only one??