Venting

Hello moms,

I just need to vent since I have no one to talk to. I lost my job in December while I was pregnant. And my sons father stepped up and got a job to pay the bills. And we agreed back until I had our son I wouldn't go back to work. April i had my son and everything became more visible. Every thing lost it's shine but with hope I thought it would get better. Sadly it didn't and it sent me further into depression. I spent everyday cry trying to get him to see me as the same ME he met. Our son was MY MAIN focus and always will me. But he turned to other women and became sloppy. Leaving messages in his phone and just disabling the app. Or giving them his friends name. And I cried more. This have been going on 9 months I get couples have rough spots. I took a YouTubers advice if you going to leave let him cheat in peace. And still he's cheating. This is my first love so it's hard for me I cry all the time. I ask him if we should have more kids he tell me no. He tells me he wants to be here and his actions show me he don't. I've been trying to get back on my feet so I can support my son alone. Because every time he get mad he take all his games and our phones and leave.

And then come home and act like nothing happen and we just ignore the problem. Or he will buy whatever I ask and be nice until we are back in the same place.