[Tired]

Hey ladies! I’m currently 9DPO and driving myself crazy! It seems the closer I get to my AP the crazier my mind goes. I’m about 5 days from my AP.

On 7DPO I experienced some weird cramps in my left side and weird back pains. Which I usually don’t cramp until my first or even second day of my period. I took a test that day because I couldn’t wait anymore. It was negative. Could’ve been way too soon.

Last night, I had a very weird vivid dream about losing my job and freaking out because I was pregnant in my dream and I just lost my job. I woke up and my heart was racing. Mind you I barely ever remember my dreams but that’ll be one I will never forget.

Today at 9DPO I experienced some weird spotting in my CM. It didn’t last all day. Maybe even just a couple of minutes at most. My backaches. I feel so tired. I took another test, I think I seen a faint line but I’m not completely sure. It’s probably still way too soon.

TMI- but I’ve been super gassy since 7DPO as well. My CM is way more than I’m used this close to my period.

But I’m a little iffy only because I don’t have sore breast and I don’t feel sick at all.

What do you think of my symptoms? Am I getting way too much in my head? Or could I be on to something?

Really hoping for the best! My brother in law passed away on Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and I know this baby would bring so much light and happiness to my family.

I won’t be taking another test unless I miss my AP. It’s just a waste of money at this point. I need to just keep myself busy until then.

Send me all the baby dust and prayers, please!! I’ll keep you all updated.

UPDATE - My AP is currently 5 days late. I’m going to wait until Monday to test again. Hoping for the absolute best! 🥺