Breastfeeding with PTSD

I have PTSD and I want to breastfeed my baby. My husband and I are going back and forth with it. I am afraid to do it because I stress easily. (Down side to PTSD) what do you suggest I can do to keep emotions in check? Also any tips for someone new to breastfeeding?

Please note I see a therapist every week and I still plan to see my therapist every week. No I am not on meditation because that actually makes all emotions unstable. I meditate and workout, but after baby is here I know I can’t workout until I get a doctors ok.

My husband and I have come up with a plan for me to be able to have some me time. Whether it is going out to the Starbucks around the corner and having decaf coffee while he is with baby etc...

Thank you!