TMI I’m shitting blood

so I’ve been shitting blood for the last 3 months or so almost everytime I go to bathroom. I’ve been so scared by it and I don’t get a colonoscopy for a few months. I’m so scared that I have something chronic such as colitis.

I have been to a dr several times I’m waiting to be transferred to a specialist

Has anyone here ever had this symptom and it turned out to be something simple?