My traumatizing birth story, 01/28/2020

Rhianna

My boyfriend Jared drove me to the hospital on 01/27 to get induced, my OB and delivery doctor came in and started cervidil at 6:47 pm. I was at 1 cm and 75% effaced starting the process. She also gave me ambien to sleep around 9 am (which just made me dizzy at first but then knocked me out for like 3-4 hours) I woke up around 4 am when she came to do another non-stress test and could not go back to sleep for awhile, I just wasn’t tired anymore. I got on my phone for about an hour or so and then finally was able to fall asleep. Around 8 my delivery doctor came in and checked me and I was at a 3 and 90% effaced. She told me she would be back around lunchtime to break my water. Around 11ish the nurse came and started pitocin and the anesthesiologist came and put my epidural in. I have scoliosis and my spine curves towards my left side and at first the epidural worked like a dream, I didn’t feel a thing and I was contracting pretty bad beforehand, after a few hours I noticed only my left side was numb, turns out my epidural didn’t take on my right side and was wearing off my left as well to make things worse. She came back to check me a few more times and around 4 pm I was still a 3 but almost 100% effaced. We didn’t think anything of it until 5 pm came around and I felt intense pressure and lots of pain, she came in and let me push my epidural button a few times but it wasn’t working hardly at all on either side at this point and even after pushing the button it still didn’t do anything, she checked me again and I was at 10 cm! After only an hour, so she had me holding her in because she had a surgery she was scheduled to start like then and it was super intense with all the pressure, after 5:20 I had an intense urge to push and get her out, Jared was holding my hand and helping me breath through the horrible contractions and I started feeling like I was going to pass out and throw up, I felt so bad for him he was so worried, he paged the nurse and told them they needed to come immediately, she came about 15 mins later around 5:35 pm with my delivery doctor and lots of other people (Phoebe had meconium in the fluid (she had pooped inside me)) and they said if she swallowed too much she would need to go to another hospital so they could get it all out, they said as soon as she was born they needed to take her to check on her, it took them a little while to set everything up and we just talked mainly about the meconium and Jared helped me through the contractions until they had me start pushing, at 6:16 pm I started pushing and pushed for 45 minutes and she was here at 7:01 pm on 01/28 (the day before my birthday) I had lots of second degree tearing and turns out, I am a free bleeder so I lost so much blood. She started crying after a few seconds and Jared cut her cord and they laid her on me for like 0.5 secs and then immediately put her in the bed thing beside of us to suction out any meconium she swallowed (which was only a little so no transfer thank God) and she had to stitch me in so many places and I felt EVERYTHING. I felt the WHOLE birth, every push, the ring of fire when her head came out, and everything. It was agonizing and Jared helped me push and held my head and rubbed my forehead while giving me ice chips, he was so amazing and supportive and even watched her come out which he said was so unreal that a woman’s body could do that 😂😂 anyways I kept bleeding and she couldn’t get it to stop so she had to clamp my uterus and “massage” (by that I mean push extremely hard on my stomach) it was so so so painful and I thought Jared was going to cry seeing me like that, he was holding Phoebe and telling her mommy was okay and after what felt like forever but was really only about 30 minutes, she got the bleeding under control and Jared gave me Phoebe and she is just so perfect and I am so obsessed with her, Jared is also so in love with her and she has so much black hair (and blue eyes which I have green and Jared has brown so that shocked us, the nurse did say they would likely change around 6 months though) and she weighed 7 pounds and 6 ounces and was 20 inches long! She is just so perfect we made the most perfect little human 😍😭😍😭😍 I am in so much pain and they had to “massage” my stomach so many times and check me every hour because of almost bleeding out, it was so scary, atleast now we know I am a free bleeder but it was extremely traumatizing but worth every bit of pain for her! She has barely cried and she is such an amazing baby, I can’t explain how in love we are with her! Jared is so protective already lol he wants her around him all the time and they have such an amazing bond already. I had to take a bath after and clean myself up and Jared actually helped me and put my hair up for me and wiped me down when I got out, he was so amazing and supportive and although her labor was so traumatizing, I have the best most supportive boyfriend and the most perfect baby girl in the world. That is my birth story for Phoebe Rose Bare!