SORRY ITS ALOT 🤦🏽‍♀️

A little backstory..

I’m 20 years old, all my life my parents have sheltered me and were pretty strict when it came to me doing things. It was so bad that I only ever was allowed to go to one sleepover during my childhood and it’s because it was right next door. I didn’t really go out much and in high school the most I ever did was for cheerleading. I have younger siblings that literally have more freedom and leeway than I ever did and than I do now.

Recently things at home haven’t been great.. I have always been a very happy person but for a while now I’ve been pretty sad.. I’ve cried driving home and will even sit outside in my car no matter the weather just to avoid going inside, I honestly feel out of place.

I have a bf he’s 23 and being with him has made me feel like a whole new person, I found happiness. I’ve been with him for a while now and I know the kind of person he is but because of the things that were happening in my house I didn’t bring him around my parents (all my siblings know him) and when I did start trying to my dad wouldn’t let him come in and the one time he did let him in my dad wouldn’t even talk to him.

I fear my parents (mom especially) and it’s because of other things from my childhood😞 and so for years now I have been trying to find a way out and my boyfriend said I could move in with him. His place is a really nice environment and I spend a lot of time over there anyway.

I’m in my 3rd year of college starting a full time internship with a full time job. My boyfriend is helping me pay for classes over the break so I can finish early and is even about to help me find a new car, he sat down and wrote out a plan for us to follow in order to keep me on track and to make sure I’m comfortable with the idea of moving. I’m really set on moving out, when I’m away I’m much happier and it’s easier to communicate with my parents.

My mom seems hurt though so am I wrong for wanting to go? 😭