Feeling a little down this month

I know this is a poll but any kind words would be so helpful. *I’m secretly scared to poll because I don’t want to hear I’m out 😂*

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Before my positive opk my hubby and I BDed Sunday and Monday, skipped Tuesday. We used preseed on Monday.

I got my positive opk Wednesday night. My husband and I BDed and used preseed. But we weren’t able to bd Thursday or Today 😔

I’ve had no cm, at least not visibly, so I’m concerned that even though sperm lives for a few days if I wasn’t creating any cm, or the right kind of cm, than it won’t be able to survive. I know preseed helps get it where it needs to be, but does it help the sperm stay alive for a day or 2?

I am so frustrated that we didn’t/couldn’t take full advantage of our window. And had anxiety to the max last night and today knowing we missed a very important day of my cycle.

Knowing all of this (BDed the night of peak, no cm from what I could tell, but used preseed) am I out this month or is there still a chance?

I’ve just been waiting and waiting and waiting to even just start trying.

I waited 1.5 years until my husband was ready.

Then waited 4 months to get off bc after he said he was ready.

Waited for 39 days for af to arrive.

Waited for my first positive opk, which I got right when I should, but it was Christmas and we could’t really “try”.

This month we can finally try, but peak literally came at the busiest 2 days of the month for us 😢