So I'm scheduled for induction with our first on wednesday, due to gestational diabetes and baby is measuring big.

Husband started feeling crappy yesterday and today ended up with a high fever. Come to find out he has flu a.

Trying so hard not to have massive anxiety attacks thinking about/worrying that they will not let him in the room with me.

I was already scared of the delivery because a combination of being my first and the chances of c section but now I might be alone and have the heart break of my husband not being there for our first born after 8 years of trying.... all I want to do is curl in a ball and cry. 😭