Will I ever get pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy and give birth to a healthy baby? Why is this so hard, trying for two years with two losses, everyone is getting pregnant so easy, my friends and family, I am happy for them but in myself I wanna scream from pain, why me God, why always about everything has to be so hard, I try to be positive and think positive but I just can’t, I’m crushed and feel like a failure, I can’t give the only thing to my husband. He loves kids and kids love him, even though he always says that it doesn’t matter if we never have kids that I am the most important thing to him, and he wants me to be happy and healthy but I just can’t to think I’m a failure, and while I write this I’m crying 😭, 11 dpo and second negative, I just wanna cry all the time, we’ve been through a lot these past two years, me being emotionally drained from the two losses and second one ending in ectopic pregnancy, I can’t stand another loss, but I’m so sad that I’m not getting pregnant and not being able to give him the most he wants- a baby. And people always saying oh this year God to give you twins, I know they mean good but I just can’t stand to hear those words again and again every time it causes me so much pain. I am sorry for annoying you but I needed a rant.