okay so me and my SO were in the car in a private area and he started to finger me and i basically squirted for the first time. i was so embarrassed and disgusted and it lead me to like a full crying mental breakdown and i couldn’t handle it. i really don’t want it to happen again like it’s freaking me out is there a way to control it or idk i don’t know how to be okay with doing it, my boyfriend thinks it’s hot and likes and was there for me and let me cry on him and he helped me but i just really don’t know how to be okay with it any ideas or idk does anyone else feel the same way