(EDIT 3: we argued and talked. we’re kind of talking a little again and could be something again. sorry to let y’all down)

(EDIT 2: im apologizing begging for him back. i know)

(EDIT: i ended things with him just now. i hate it i miss him i wish i didn’t but hopefully i’ll feel better in the future)

hi guys so i’m 15 and the guy im talking too is turning 16 later this month. there’s just a lot to this story so buckle up. we’ve been talking for about 2 1/2 months and we haven’t officially dated yet. recently he said he had to wait until he got paid next because he wanted to ask me out in front of his friends with flowers and chocolate. so anyway that’s why we aren’t actually dating yet but he calls me his gf and shit. anyway he’s kinda difficult. he doesn’t like my one friend and she’s not fat at all but she’s maybe 10 pounds over average like literally nothing bad you can’t even tell. he’s called her ogre and santa clause and just fat bitch (which he also calls me, but i’m really skinny so it’s different) anyway i’ve talked to him about it a bit before but i never get to serious because when he gets mad he just says k to me so most the time i bring it up i’m super lenient and i almost make it seem like it’s her fault for being sensitive. he normally just tried to avoid the conversation and doesn’t reply. he knows how much i rely on him because i’ve told him and i make sure he knows so he doesn’t leave me. so my issue is that a man comes into my life and i’m willing to give up everything for them, honestly even my own life. anyway it’s not healthy and i am looking for a therapist but it’s causing me to put him above my friends even though he honestly treats me like shit. he said when i’m 60 i’m done tapping that (we haven’t actually done that yet, we had a plan but it messed up) and i said done tapping anybody or just me and he said just you probably and laughed a little. when we first started talking all i got called was babygirl and now it’s whore, slut, big head and fat bitch. i’m ok with those names here and there as a joke i love humor in a relationship but it’s all i get now. when we’re playing a game together with his friends online he’ll call me lil mamas but it’s just weird how i really don’t get it alone anymore. he’s also once called me his ex’s name as a joke like ugh your acting just like her (when he had me read my journal page about him) (it was about just me being attached to him which is weird he’d say that because there’s emails of him saying he’s attached to me so i don’t understand how it’s like his ex when i do it) but when he put on this outfit on roblox and i said he looked like this dude who forced me for nudes a while back he went completely silent for like 10 minutes and hung up. he called back about 15 minutes later saying i’m still mad at you but imma calm down. this was one of our worst fights when i left the roblox server we were on together (i’ll put screenshots of our texts after i explain the situation) and i came back unexpectedly in about 5 minutes. i saw him chatting some random person we were playing with on the server calling her girlll and shit. i got upset and i left without explanation for two minutes and joined again to see if he would do it while i was gone again and he did. i told her to ask if he was single and he said yes which i was somewhat ok with since he technically is but then she told me that he said he wasn’t talking to any girls which is what made me type to him block me on everything and don’t call again. that led to the texts down there. there’s so much more i could say but there’s too much to type. anyway he’s been nice though too. he cane to my house and cuddled me and gives me his jackets and wants my scrunchies and it’s just when he is nice it’s great and i love it but for a split second everyday i see the truth of he’s an ass and him being bipolar and having anger issues doesn’t give him an excuse to treat you so badly but then it’s covered with how i feel because i love him because i want him to stay but i also feel trapped. i just don’t know what to even begin doing. (ALSO FORGOT TO MENTION!) he asked me for full nudes down there once so of course i did it and let him screenshot some and he said on the call with my friend on the call too in one of the photos it “looked chapped like chapped lips” and then sent the photos to my friend on the call.