Is it my fault

So I moved to a new school and I met this guy me and him are just friends I never really liked him like that but he tried and tried and tried for months to get me to date him so finally I gave him a chance we were just talking and hanging for now but this isn’t the first time I had hung out with him I’d hang out with him with him and his cousin before but one day and I were talking phase me and him decided to hang out alone and It went fine until he decided to hang out again we had to skip seventh And went to his house we hung out and we started kissing nothing more and then he started to touch me and I told him no I didn’t want to do that not until we were serious because and he kept trying and I said no stop I don’t wanna do anything with you and he said fine he wasn’t gonna do anything but then all of a sudden he’s pulling down my pants and well you know what happens next and I just sit there blink because I didn’t wanna do stuff with him and I told him no and he didn’t listen I just laid there with no emotion upset and angry and sad it felt like I couldn’t move I don’t know what to call this I wouldn’t call it rape because I feel like I put myself in that position but at the same time I never looked at him the same I talk to him the day after because I was avoiding him at all cost even when we had a class together I wouldn’t go and he stopped me in the hall and asked me why I was avoiding him in a cocky way and I said you know why I told you I didn’t want to do anything with you and then he said but you never told me to stop and I said what do you expect me to do when I’m laying there not showing any emotion on the ground don’t you think you should stop when you saw that or when I told you I didn’t wanna do stuff with you in the first place I don’t even look his way anymore and I don’t count him because I want to forget that ever happened and my boyfriend now at this time it seems like he doesn’t consider it like that he doesn’t even believe me that I said no 😔 because he said if I really said no then why didn’t I push him off and I tried telling him that I felt like I couldn’t move I was just laying there blank