Hello 👋🏼

Sooo I had sex with one of my closest friends on new years (we’ve always had tension between us, but nothing has ever really happened), we were very drunk, I remember everything, and really wanting it. We had mind blowing sex together, probably one of the best I’ve ever had, he started playing around my butthole, fingering me and over all just playing with it, and a certain point I asked him if he wanted to do anal, on the spot and of course he said yes. We had no lube and I have never done it before but it was one of the best sexual feelings ever, I honestly loved it. Him and I have continued to hook up, he plays with my butthole just as much but we tried to do anal a few days ago and it was nothing like the first time, it was painful and he quickly took it back, I’ve also been reading posts on here about how dangerous anal can be, now i’m just confused and am wondering if I should even try it again or not? I want to have that feeling again, was it the alcohol or the momentum? Any advice is welcome!

Thank you Ladies❤️