He doesn't. He doesn't try to cuddle because he is always "uncomfortable" but looks pretty comfortable to me. Is always on his phone, sleeps a mile away from me every night, I have to nearly beg him for sex at all so no more of that I guess, he doesn't want to show affection to me at all anymore. I try to kiss him and he barely gives me a kiss back after an eye roll, he doesn't want to even be in public with me anymore. Let alone try to hold my hand or anything, he always talks about work and the girls at work, constantly smoking weed, drinking, or playing a video game, one time tried to play a board game and he gets pissed but still hardly interacts with me, anyone else messages him or sends him something he is Johnny on the spot to answer it but when it's me he ignores it or never even opens it, he doesn't care that I try to talk and have a conversation with him he just makes up excuses or he goes and does something else, he doesn't say goodmorning, goodnight, nothing. He doesn't care anymore. He acts like he wants me gone, like he doesn't want this baby, like he doesn't want M but he is all about talking to his "buddies" at work and Mac. But fuck everyone else. We get attitude. We are treated like the crumb on the floor that gets stepped on, vacuumed up, and thrown away. Never to be thought of again, he doesn't want to be with me, he wants out. I'm not stupid. I am no longer putting all my effort forward into making him feel loved and appreciated and shit when he cant do anything to make us feel loved anymore. He is mean, aggressive, and just plain out rude. He doesn't give a shit who he snaps at or when he snaps. He doesn't give a shit where he is he will be down right rude, hurt your feelings more deeply than ever before and then act like it is absolutely all your fault and he did nothing at all. I am beyond done being treated like shit, I'm tired of my daughter always being yelled at, and put somewhere else instead of being with everyone and interacting with everyone else. I'm tired of her being "thrown" around when he is pissed off that she is crying or whining or fussy. I'm tired of always coming in last in his book. Me and M both. He doesn't care about us. He gets pissed off that I say that. That I say he doesn't care about us, but where is he to show he cares at all? Cause it has been a loooooonnnnnngggggggggf while since I have seen any care for us at all. 

I GIVE UP. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. I CAN'T. 

Time to get a job, save up the money, get into an appartment big enough for me and the baby and M and move on I guess. Because he is showing that's what he wants. I am done fighting for attention. I'm done begging for attention. I am just simply DONE. that's it. I am not going to sit around and let my daughter see me being treated like shit by her father. He is probably more interested in a girl at work or something. He seems to like that place better then he likes being home anyway. Since he started he has liked being there more than here. So what would it really hurt if we left? He wouldn't miss us. He would be happy he could sleep whenever, smoke weed whenever, drink whenever, have anyone he wants over, fuck whoever he wants. Lord knows. He is the one that got me pregnant and now he wants nothing to do with me. This is awesome. I hope he doesn't do this to the next girl because clearly I am NOT the one he wants to be with forever anyway. And that's whatever. I am not marriage material. I get that. I am not good enough. Thank you asshole for finally helping me see mine and my daughters true worth to you. Means a lot. 

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. 

Plain and simple. 

Last but not least.... 

Thanks for the beautiful daughter and the baby in my stomach, all the memories together... until we meet again sometime.... maybe in another life where you might give a shit....👌💔💔 but don't worry. We will be okay on our own. We will figure out our next path we need to take. Even if it is without you...💔👌👍

To anyone who read this all the way thank you...