I need advice

Aubrey • Lesbian, 14

In 6th grade I started questioning my gender, for a while I believed I was trans (ftm) and was a lot happier. But because of my father being transphobic I forgot about it, but felt a lot more uncomfortable in my body. I hadn’t told anyone and recently i’ve been beginning to accept how I feel, mostly because the feeling of wanting to literally cut off my chest and to have a penis have become overwhelming. I haven’t told anyone in fear of not being accepted or that my dad won’t want me in his house anymore. But I still feel as though transitioning and accepting myself is something I shouldn’t be doing. I was just wondering if anyone felt the same and how you got over it.

(I’m currently in 8th)