I don’t know how to feel. Is it normal to be still so traumatized from pregnancy and labor 2 years later? My daughter is turning 2 next month. My husband is 34 this year. He’s worried he’s getting too old, and really wants a second baby. It breaks my heart because I’m only 26 and I feel like I have tons of time. But I guess in his perspective, he has every right to feel the way he does. He’s been so amazing and understanding. But I have so many conflicting feelings. I threw up the entire 9 months i was pregnant. My labor was scary (the cord detached from the placenta). Then my daughter had such a severe case of jaundice that it worried so many doctors. But she pulled through by some miracle. I then breast fed for a year. It wasn’t until my daughter turned 14 months before I felt my body was my own again since the day I conceived. And the thought of starting all over again just scares the shit out of me. I try to remain hopeful that every pregnancy is different and maybe it won’t be so hard. But God what if it does. And lastly. Are 2 kids easier than 1? Or would we be in for a whirlwind.

I love my husband. He’s given me an amazing life and provides so much for us. He’s kind. He’s patient. He’s loving. He would do anything in the world for me. Which is why I think maybe I should just put on my brave face and take this on for him. Anyways. Thanks for the vent.