On the 25th Jan at a private scan we found that our babies heartbeat had stopped at 9 weeks and 4 days, I was meant to be 10 and half weeks....on the 27th Jan at our hospital they confirmed the baby had no heartbeat and gave us our options, I chose the surgical option so I didnt have to pass the baby naturally, surgery was booked for 5th Feb....

This morning I woke up and was bleeding, rang the early pregnancy unit and they said to keep an eye for now, an hour later I was passing clots about the size of a ping pong ball, rung them back crying down the phone telling them I did not want this to happen at home, they said to come in to see a doctor with possibility of having op today too,

Made our way to the hospital, got there about lunch time, booked in and waited in waiting room, an hour and half pass and still not been seen but my pain is getting worse, go to desk to ask how long and as I did I felt a pop sensation, went to the toilet and blood just poured out of me and then I felt something big about to come out, had no way of catching it so used my hands, in that was the baby, managed to take it out and wrap it in tissue....

Cleaned myself up and took this tiny little baby in tissue out to the nurses, the reason I caught it was because I had opted for it to be sent off for genetic testing. From there I was a mess, I was crying so hard, pouring blood, in so much pain etc

Got given pain killers and then the doctor came and finally saw us and got us to sign some papers and asked lots of questions, we had to wait another hour or two to make sure the bleeding slowed a bit, in that time I passed tennis ball sized clots and the placenta, the bleeding was still heavy but not heavy enough to keep me there so we were sent home.

It has been the worst afternoon of my life and I'm annoyed that I had to go through that even after choosing the surgical option- this is miscarriage number 3 for us, the first two were really early- but 4th pregnancy, we are extremely lucky to have a baby girl who will be a year soon!