Six months ago I separated from my ex husband. Just recently got divorced. Everything seemed okay, I was getting better and better, working hard on getting my life back together, starting over... until today when I though I saw him... I almost ran following him just to see where he was going and what he looked like. He abused me emotionally telling me I look likr a man, I stink, I am a horrible person, I am a pshyco, stupid, he doesnt want me or to have kids with me... spent all my money and then left me. I mean this is the person who was my life and I learned in a very rough manner that he was with me all along because of my money. I look like a model am really well educated and come from a nice family. In therapy I even learned he is most likely a narcissist and a sociopath. The worst part is that he is a clinical psychologist and is according to my therapist an expert manipulator. It took me ages to stop blaming myself... why am i telling you all this? Because I learned today that I am still heart broken as the first day I found out he was cheating and was leaving me. I want to know how do I move on because it was so hard today and yet so relieving realizing it wasnt him. I wanted to get over the whole thing working on my research projects and spending time with my friends and family and, in general, just doing a lot of sports and enjoying life. Didnt even think about going into another relationship for fear of not finalizing the process of learninf to love myself again and just going slowly. But, today, I thought "Oh, my God! How long will it take me to stop having feelings for this person who did me so much harm?" It is horrible, I know people wont understand it because I cant either... And, so, would a new relationship help? Anyone who could share their experiences?

Thanks!