I’m out of words for how many feelings I have for somebody is impossible to describe, it’s as if the word love can’t explain what I feel for him. People say I don’t know what I want because I’m so young but i do, and it’s to....well, I don’t know I just want him, in every way ; I want him to share his feelings with me, I want him to open up to me, make me feel something, I want him to grow as a person. I’ve been in love with him for four years and I can’t handle the feelings welling up inside me, it’s unbearable to the point we’re I don’t know if I will be able to handle graduating and leaving him behind. It’s just funny that I could feel so manny feelings for someone who I’ve only been distant friends with. School just makes it harder to try and move on, out of nine period I have every one with him, and that’s a grand total of 7hrs daily five days a week. We’re always partners and we sit close to each other and idk why it’s like we’re set up to be together but he most likely doesn’t share the same feelings for me. It’s like everyone around me is numb besides him, but recently he has seemed so distant from his friends and he’s changed. We always used to talk and pass little notes to each other in math class, I mean I can remember every single conversation we had in health, but then he lost himself, I don’t know how or why. All I want is for him to be happy even if it’s without me even though I know I will still want him nomatter how much I try. I just don’t know what to do or what I’m supposed to do to try to move on, it’s just impossible. It doesn’t help that I hate myself on a daily. Everything is just so hard, I don’t think I will ever be that same happy girl every again. I don’t know we’re everything went wrong. It’s been over a year since I was happy. I’m crying my eyes out every damn day and I just want things to change. I just want to be happy again, please help....