My husband and I have been trying to start our family for over two years now. Last August we found out we had a 1% chance of conceiving without <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>.

We jumped two feet in immediately did <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, got theee embryos, transferred one and it didn’t take. Right before Christmas we transferred our last two, and in Christmas even got the best Christmas present ever, finding out we were indeed expecting.

We had a 6 week ultrasound, measuring right on time with heartbeat , a 7 week ultrasound measuring right on time with a heartbeat, an informal ultrasound at 8 weeks 3 days where again we saw baby and heart flickering. At 9 weeks 1 day, my worst fear came true and there was no longer a heart beat.

Two days later after finding out there was no longer a heartbeat we got the news that it was our son we lost.

I am so lost, broken, and in utter shock right now. I can’t believe this is happening.

I had to have 3 DNC’s awake and unmedicated... it was physically torture, but a distraction... and now that the physical is over it leaves to deal with my emotions and I just can’t. Every morning I wake up and have the realization that he’s gone all over again.

To add salt to the wound, the day we found out our son no longer had a beating heart, my family was celebrating the birth of my brothers first child... I feel like I can’t be happy about my niece right now and I feel awful that I feel that way but I can’t help it.

😩😢💙