I don’t post too often on here but tonight I decided I’d vent and let out my frustration and disappointment.

My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage in November of 2018. Ever since then we’ve tried to get pregnant again, but it’s just not happening. Several old friends/ people I went to school with/ are having babies left and right. One is on her 3rd and we’re 23 and tonight when I got on Facebook an old friends sister who I’ve hung out with and been around many times in the past announced they are having twins! Two other girls I know are also having a set of twins! I couldn’t be more happy for them but I also can’t help but have a heavy heart knowing I want this so bad. I get a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach when I think about all the joy I’m missing out on. We have great jobs and bought a house back in November! We are so ready for a little blessing of our own. It’s the one thing I want more in the whole world and the one thing it seems I cant have. Pray for my aching heart ladies and I will pray for yours. I would be a great mother and would give an amazing life to a child. I ache so bad to be blessed. I pray everyday. I cry in the shower. I even force myself to not think about it for periods of time and then I see another one pregnant and happy and the feelings make their way up again. 😔