I don't know how to feel

Heather

So my fiance and I broke up after 7.5 years of being together. He said he hasn't loved me in months... As someone who has been sexually abused I am having issues. He still had sex with me, because i thought he loved me. Now i feel disgusting and used and its taking me back to a bad place. Am I wrong to feel this way? I feel ao fucked up.