I am probably the only one but I feel so jealous of other pregnant women. The reason, i don’t know why?

My first pregnancy was with a man I was with 8 years with you decided the moment we found out he was going to cheat, lie, abuse me and then up and leave two weeks before I was due. I hated myself. I couldnt enjoy being pregnant. We tried once and ended up getting pregnant so it was quite easy.

My next pregnancy, 5 years later was out of the blue. I ended up drinking too much and had sex with a coworker and got pregnant. I wasn’t on the pill and we should of known better lol. Well he’s an AMAZING bf and father to both my oldest son and our son together. I got so lucky. I enjoyed that pregnancy, felt loved and beautiful.

Now we know we don’t want anymore children. I don’t quite want my tube tied as I’m 27. But I KNOW I don’t want anymore kids. I’m happy with the two we have but whoever I see pregnancy announcements or pregnant women I get so jealous. Mad, irritated... I don’t know why cause I know I don’t want that anymore. Anyone else like this or am I crazy lol