This month is very hard for me. I had a miscarriage 2 years ago and it broke me.... I got really obsessed with trying to get pregnant again that I became very depressed... August of 2019 I went and tried to get help and the doctor put me on antidepressants and I was going to try again... but then in September my life changed for the worse.... on September 18th I became paralyzed from the waist down. I was in 4 different hospitals they couldnt figure out what was going on with me. I was in the hospital for 40 days till they figured out that I had a rare disease that attacked my immune system which attacked my spine. I was heart broken. Im still paralyzed and its just been a bad start of the new year..... I'm trying to be hopeful but my hope is dwindling it's one thing after another ....